25. "Wounds and Scars"
"'They seemed to say that they owed me nothing, that their deafness had provided me with a moral goal, that it had been my duty to struggle, to suffer, to bear - for their sake - whatever sneers, contempt, injustice, torture they chose to inflict upon me, to bear it in order to teach them to enjoy my work, that this was their rightful due and my proper purpose.'"
- Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged
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by Edward Lacie
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Rimbaud had another sister, aged between himself and the youngest in the family, who died of illness before Rimaud. He wondered if he had what she had had.
She lived to her late teens and kept a diary of her and her mother's visit to London. Rimbaud had just been abandoned by Verlaine. Rimbaud's mother and sister left when Rimbaud mysteriously got a supposed job in Wales or Ireland for which there are no records.
The months after this family visit are the most unaccounted for in Rimbaud's life, only one of his many mysteries. His trail picks up in Reading, where Oscar Wilde would be held in just a few short years at its "gaol". I imagine them meeting at the equivalent of a gay bar of the era, Rimbaud and Wilde. Wild.
How does Billy Zane rate special guest status while Heather Graham is only a guest star? Why does the cast list include James so often when he's seldom in "Twin Peaks" any more?
I've written a new introduction to "A New Rimbaud" but I don't know how to segue from the new to the old.
I've also updated the explication of "A Real Education" to include references to Blaise Cendrars and poetry of the early French Cubists. I've added it to the "Supplemental Documents" page and posted it. (I first now realize the possible pun of Jim "Post," a noun and a verb.) I've also hacked into a page of old Baysans poetry ("Y2K Ramblings") and created a disguised link to my pages!
The ghost of Josie is trying to kill Sheriff Truman (that explains why she is still in the opening credits though she died many episodes ago).
Perhaps I can interview Baysans in order to add to the explications that I've written. Asking him questions, however, is no help to me.
He's so impassionate as to not care that I killed Poet X. I didn't tell him at first, only recently after tiring of his infernal, eternal remoteness. He didn't break.
The good feelings we'd been developing changed immediately after Jim Post tried to kill Baysans. It wasn't my idea. In fact, I interrupted and prevented it. Since then Baysans a different person.
I have an appointment tomorrow, a group session. The drama of stopping Jim Post from killing Baysans isn't something that got mentioned when I was there earlier this week. Three days from not, too, I doubt I'll say that I have a captive at home.¹
It's time to move away from here anyway. I'm tired of the Northwest and all the coffee drinkers.²
Besides the end of the "Twin Peaks" tapes coming up in a few viewing/writing hours, I'll be glad to resolve that "other situation" because it should resolve my financial woes whether I kill him or have one less mouth to fill, even if it is only once a day along with a snack.
My poverty is fueling my anger and tipping the scale on what I think I should decide to do with him.
Same with my hunger. I've been really hungry. Baysans has had one meal a day for over a month now. He claims not to mind.
"Windham Earl was in the house yesterday."
It's easy to imagine being under the stars back home in Spokane.
We learn that Windham Earl was investigating UFOs before he cracked up. Windham Earl has bugged Truman's office and is listening to all his past being dredged up. He has Leo tied up in his cabin, his captive slave like I have Baysans.
Queen Donna, Queen Audrey, Queen Shelley. Windham Earl, in disguise (three disguises to be precise), has visited each, has invited them to his ball. He means to kill someone Cooper loves because Cooper is responsible for the death of the woman they both loved, Cooper's wife at the time.
"That's the kind of girl who makes you wish you spoke a little French," Gordon Cole yells to Cooper.
I allowed Baysans out of his cage today long enough to answer e-mail from George K-, former acquaintance and contributor to the JWR. Damn, I've let the JWR storyline drop out of here. Sloppy writing, especially now that I'm pressed to finish writing this sooner than I'd intended.
It's something I've asked him about (the early days of the JWR and writers group), but the stories aren't as exciting as I'd have guessed. Anyway, I've kept my eye on him, and I've been the one to send the "send" button sending. Then it's back to his basement cage and needy stomach.
I've never been suicidal like he has. Should I be? I'm now as broke as he has been. Maybe I shouldn't feed him at all.
"You just tried to tell a joke," says Truman to Cooper, in love with Annie, the newest waitress (and Norma's sister). Gordon Cole plans an epic poem about pie.
Cooper wants to go to Owl Cave, also known as the "Castle of No Return".³ It's there that the door to the Black Lodge or White Lodge (both?) most likely will be found.
Windham Earl tells Audrey he's a professor of poetry.
I'm adding details to my fake biography of Blaise Cendrars: he lost an arm whereas Rimbaud lost a leg. Like Rimbaud he'll stop writing poetry, but unlike Rimbaud he will eventually write prose and fiction and become acknowledged.
Is this episode over yet?
My moving deadline has been set, and Jim Post is looking at houses. Instead of watching these episodes of "Twin Peaks" at a slower pace, I'm having to pick up the pace again (or abandon the project? Kill Baysans and be done with it? Finish what I started how I should have finished it then?), accelerating my writing, not a desirable state.
The Major or General, whichever he is, was, Bobby's dad, shows up on UPN in an episode of the new "Twilight Zone" as I type this, February, 2003. Is this the show he's escaping to whenever he comes up missing on "Twin Peaks"?
It's most definitely the same character.
Something about counting outlets is ringing in my ears as if I've already written it in this narrative but I look back and find nothing. After having looked and not found it, I forget what it was about outlets I was going to say. I think it's Jim Post who has been counting outlets at the houses he's been looking at.
He's found a house and put an offer in. After months of roadblocks, he's getting a key tomorrow.
At last, the end of the episode. Another cigarette and so to bed.
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